Unfortunately there are more blogs than there are creative people. I am definitely one of them. My desire to be a creative person is definitely high, but my ability to do so is very low. I think there is a serious answer to this next thought; “Does being creative come naturally or do you have to work for it?” I am thinking there is a native creative ability, but very few of those people can access it without working very hard at doing so. I think there are a few that are creative, obsessed with their creative nature, and therefore are not distracted by things other than outputting their creativity. I wish to do something that I can appreciate along with others, especially those that know me.
For many years now, possibly due to my ADHD, I have paced. I walk around with a fair conviction in the steps, flowing with energy and thoughts. Since I have had a portable music player, that has also been apart of it. It feels like the same story, but I am sure it almost resembles nothing like it began. I have had an ongoing story of some sort of distillment of what I wish I could be beyond that capable of modern science. Generally some sort of fantasy and/or science fiction where I am able to react to life with god-like powers. So many variants of that have come through these day dreams. Right now my current character of myself is probably around the twentith rendition of this base ideal. I actually have a huge cast in the current cannon of my day dreams. Most of the characters were once the main character, and therefore myself. Base goals are the same, to rise above and gain control. But the methods, ways I inflict my morals upon others, and means of which I do so change.
The characters themselves have distinct attitudes and definitely have distinct features too. This is where I wish my creativity could finally materialize in some manner. My ability to convey ideas with the English language is dreadful, but my ability to make a story is even worse. I am sure if I set my mind to it, I could describe in a very technical manner all these characters, but I wish more would be to visualize them. I love art, and I love more to see dramatic characters displayed in frozen moments of action, romanticizing their nature in action. I have been obsessed with artistic forms of weapons, dresses, and girls. Adding an extreme fantasy and sci-fi nature upon those too would be amazing if done well. That would be a lovely goal, if I could get myself away long enough to learn, learn to draw!
